Okay, so, I’ve been meaning to post this song for a long while. I found I’ve been able to relate to this song so much lately. I was listening to Lana on my way to work, and though I think all of her music is incredible, this one really spoke to me. Particularly because I have been trying to figure my life out and certain aspects of it.
This song really speaks to me because I have been relying a lot on other people for my happiness… and just a lot in general. One person in particular. I try so hard to smile and forget everything and try to get over things and lead the happy life that I want to… but when I’m alone, that’s when my mind starts to race and eventually lead myself to tears. My mind is so crazy and there’s so much going on that I try to ignore… but sometimes I just can’t.
One line in particular that caught my attention was “Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I’ve got a war in my mind.” I feel like I try not to let things affect me, but in reality, these problems are always on my mind and I can’t stop thinking about them.
I honestly wish I could just “ride” and get away from everything.
Hello? Hello?, C-Can you hear me?, I can be your china doll, if you want to see me fall ……